Year 1: Ethics

Excerpt from essay on meditation:

"I thought of life and how these things helped round out my world. I visualized who the people might be and why they laughed. I thought of the way the wind moved the trees. I could see the gravel and feel the leaves. I questioned these sounds too. Thinking to myself: What was it that made the dog bark? Where was the crow flying to? And why am I here?

As I did this I felt myself grow bigger and bigger. I suddenly grew too big for my skin. My being expanded until it filled my bed. Then I grew as large as the room. I saw my body lying there. I saw my room. I saw the world outside. But yet my eyes remained closed.

Just when I began to feel lost in all of these questions I began to shrink once more. I grew smaller and smaller. Soon I felt very tiny in my big body. The moon faded. The sounds faded. My breathing grew faster. I awoke once more to the world as it is.
I opened my eyes. It was 5:15pm. The sun was still out. The world was still noisy. I was still here.

I blew out the candles and gazed sadly at the incense now turned to ash. It was nice to be bigger than myself for awhile. Now I must go back to being the real me."

Sunday, August 20, 2006